I Am Just a Passenger

This was originally recorded on my cell phone today because I had no paper or pen.



The shadows are shrinking as the cars pass

I know it's not her fault but I still blame her for the bumpy road

The airplanes are like fireflies in the distance

And the zeppelin is a whale in a sky of black

The speed scares me and there's sin flying high

Click it or ticket between heaven and hell

All I see is red and all I hear is fire

Now all I see is the white light

All the living things are silhouettes

The trees, the hills, even the people

When you are young

or because I am young I'm in the dark, not understanding everything completely, and sometimes very naive.

Also I am very cynical and I've been that way for some time.

For being young I can being very close minded sometimes. That must be the selfishness that children have. When I view something it's going to be the way a see it not you.

But a plus for being young I can be surprised. Not very often that I am surprised but right now I am.

Certain images of people are cast in your mind when you are young, especially the people that are always around you, the ones that live with you.

When you are young you are forgetful because at the time you don't need to remember or are even capable of remembering so many things.

I had forgotten that my mom loves her kids, even when they screw up, no especially when they screw up. And she doesn't let anyone mess with her kids. Ultimate protector. It's nature I guess.

So for now I'm living up my time being young. I don't want to be old yet. It seems I've wasted too much time being old or older at least. I can sleep when I'm dead and hate the world when there's something worth hating. Don't waste time when you are young.

It's easy

to write when you are sad, depressed, angry, just all those negative emotions.
So it's hard to write things like poetry, no matter how crappy it is, when you feel good when you feel happy.

I feel good. I feel great. I feel happy. Because life is good.

So what if I'm changing schools, it's a new beginning, fresh start, things will be different in some ways. So what if I'm not doing so well in school, I can always redeem myself. I'm still in high school, full of second chances.

The thing about being happy is sometimes people don't want to hear it. They'd rather me be miserable like themselves, and I know because that's how I feel when I'm down I want everyone else to be down with me.

So that's my problem I care too much what people think. Plus I haven't been writing anything recently because I'm not sad. I'm pretty sure that almost all my poetry has been written while extremely depressed or even faintly pissed. So that's the only thing I'm missing is the inspiration to write.

When I'm happy I can't write. When I'm sad I can, however crummy it is.




Oh well

Almost Acoustic Christmas

OH YEAH

IT'S HAPPENING







AGAIN!

THE CURE, THE KILLERS, DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE, PARAMORE, FRANZ FERDINAND, SCOTT W, SNOW PATROL, VAMPIRE WEEKEND

Most Likely

I will no longer be attending LA instead I'll be transferring to Norwhack High.

I'm not totally bummed out about this change because it's just that, a change. Changes don't happen all the time and it will be nice to be somewhere different. Yes I will miss all of my friends and the whole Drama Dept. but I'm going to make the best of my situation.

It's my own fault for not getting my grades up and I understand that. My mom has given me enough chances.

Huge Upside: I won't have to wake up all early because it's just right down the street.

Oh Fat Charlie

I finished Anansi Boys and it was great. Well the book was good, but some parts of it were really inspiring.

So I was inspired.

I started singing my own songs. And I guess I started writing a script, probably for a movie.
Thinking I should have made it a book, but you should never write a book if you only wish it to be a movie and it started out being a movie. The book will give your purpose away. Then it's made into a movie and nobody likes it except your mom. Your mom not my mom because she would say if didn't like it.

Wrote down things that were important, things I need to know for later.

And imagined an epic speech only spoken for my U.S. history class.

So Monday was good and today, Tuesday, was also good. Monday was better for a change.

I admit I've been reading the dictionary.

The word I'm loving right now is nepenthe.

I haven't been doing so well in school (two D's and one C) so I've been doing makeup work. I'm fried now and taking a break, but I finished most of it. I need to get my grades up so I can go to New York this spring break with the drama kids.

Speaking of drama, I'm going to try out for this Shakespeare competition because the winner gets to go to London during the summer for acting lessons. Luck.

...that's all